Beware of the Battle Cesspool

I was amazed at the amount of junk being dished at me while I was sick and the more energy I spent battling these thoughts the more sick and dizzy I felt. I prayed and prayed and read and read.

I finally just gave up in a sense…. I still thanked God for the relief, no matter how small but I released any type of "responsibility" from myself. I "surrendered" any type of expectation "I" had on God.

I curled up underneath my blankets and did my best to sleep and stay warm. Sure sweeping negative thoughts still came but I let them go and eventually I did sleep soundly.

I more or less took "Me" was out of the equation. I could do battle all day with God’s word and drown in a cesspool of well-advised words but in the end, isn’t it God’s responsibility to heal me not my responsibility to heal me?

It really doesn’t matter how much belief I have in God just that I have faith that he will get me through this flu bug, in the matter he wants me to get through it.

How much energy are we willing to expel on something more then God? Is the battle really ours or is it God’s battle? If we aren’t careful we can drown ourselves in a battle cesspool of words and thoughts. Remember the dark forces we fight against have battle tactics far superior then our own. We are God’s children but sometimes our wishes to be a super Christians or even our sickly flesh can get in the way of God’s lessons for us.

I can say, I have prayed for my children and myself and we have been healed from the flu instantly but is being healed instantly every time, teaching us about suffering and enduring? Is it teaching us anymore about God? Is our faith being stretched when we are healed instantly?
I will say it has given a stronger faith that God can heal instantly but is there a lesson in being sick at times in our life?

Our bodies are only usable down here. We were given these bodies for what purpose? Why didn’t God give us the bodies He has for us up in heaven? The only reason I can come up with is so we can begin to understand what God wants us to learn from them. They are not just a temporary vessel but are a tool.

Remember "It’s not by might, not by power but by my spirit," says the Lord.

Please read Romans 11:33-36 slowly:

"Oh, what a wonderful God we have! How great are his riches and wisdom and knowledge! How impossible it is for us to understand his decisions and his methods! For who can know what the Lord is thinking? Who knows enough to be his counselor? And who could ever give him so much that he would have to pay it back? For everything come from him; everything exists by his power and is intended for his glory. To him be glory evermore. Amen."